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Last year on this day, I was in Austin, Texas chasing a dream.  For years I had wished to move my thriving blog Art of Collecting Yourself to a more fleshed-out website designed to let me do more of what I love….connect with Creatives.   Finally….the day arrived.  I had joined a website publishing challenge called One K in 1 Day and found that one of their meet-ups for support was in Austin.  So I headed out with a goal to actually publish the site on the day of the event.

I put in lots of time before hand.  I selected a theme and then tried to figure it out which also meant figuring Photoshop out.  Yikes!  Day by day in the month leading up to the event, I crafted the bones of my very first website.  It was one of the biggest creative challenges of my life.  But given how much it meant to me, I thought it just might be worth it.  And I was right!

Today marks my one year anniversary of the website.  Earlier in the summer I quietly celebrated 3 years since I started blogging.  All tolled, I have published a whopping 499 posts between the first blog and this site.  Wow!  That is an average of over 3 posts a week.  Can you tell I love writing?!

My posts have slowed down recently a bit as I am upping the self-care, taking care of my sweet little womb.  (For more details you can catch up on Boldly Saying the “C” Word.)

A Look at the Past

Some of the transitions my blog banner has gone through this year…

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Check out some of this year’s highlights!

First post…  Creativity Tribe: Bare Bones (it’s a good one!)

First radio interview…  Lucid Waking

Began offering Coaching Services for Creatives

Started a Guest Blog Series… This Sense-sational Life

The big trip up the middle of America…

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Angels & Faeries Week honoring Angels in My Studio 2013

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First Telesummit… Become Soulfully Connected Telesummit

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xoxo And of course there was so much more!  xoxo

The year to come is so full of potential and possibility.  I just can’t help but wonder what I will be sitting and typing about in September of 2014.  I hope it will mean more beautiful connections with those who find their way here, more magical moments of understanding and loving myself, and more big dreams to spin into reality.

I want to close this post with huge thank you from the bottom of my very deep heart!  Every day someone from my creative community touches my life in ways that are big surprises to me.  They share themselves, their creations, their hopes and allow me to serve as witness.  And more and more as I go down this new journey of healing my body, that same community is rising up to offer their support and love to me.  I can’t tell you what a huge gift this is.  Life is good!  Thanks for being part of mine!

Creatively yours,

Rachel Payne Life Coach

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A Celebration….A Challenge

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A Celebration

Today I have been spinning with awe.  Something I wished to change in my life and set in motion last Fall rose up today to show me its resolution.  Sometimes we don’t know how our dreams will play out.  Watching them unfold can be a trip.

Last Fall, I began exploring a very ingrained story about dying at 45 like my mom and her father.  I don’t know why I got it stuck in my head, but I did!  I kept myself from truly following my dreams because I just couldn’t see life beyond that.  As 45 inched closer, I decided I would reach for wellness and longevity…..trying to avoid my fear of death wasn’t working so I might as well go through the back door!  I had tried to deny my fear for so long without making headway that I thought claiming life might give death a run for its money.

I began seeing a chiropractor who was also a naturopathic doctor.  Some of her methods were unconventional.  Some were cutting edge.  When it felt right, I followed what she prescribed.  I began listening to my body, working on the subtle issues that came up.  And a theme began to develop.  I was sick.  My cycle went crazy. You can read all about it in my previous post Boldly Saying the “C” Word where I share about recently discovering I have uterine cancer.

Yah, on my way to reaching for wellness and longevity I discovered the thing that just might have killed me just as I had been spinning in my imagination for decades.  Instead frantically wrestling with the fear, I shifted my reality.  Here I am with a very curable dis-ease, caught early, with a great outlook for the future.  I think some people might immediately see cancer as a pathway to dying.  I know for me it is a catalyst for living with more freedom than I have in decades. Cancer helped me let go of death and grab onto life.

With or without the cancer, I was on my way towards a better life thanks to the body work, emotional and spiritual work I have been doing since I started working on living longer.  Each day I would look for ways to make life better….healthier, happier, more connected to nature, people, myself, and that Something More that walks this journey with me.  Life felt like it was full of possibility!

So that is my celebration…..now an invitation for you to move towards a celebration for yourself.

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A Challenge

A Challenge:  What if there really was a field of possibility for you to pull your life’s desire out of….what would YOU set in motion?  Anyone dare state that today?   Check inside and see what might feel like it wants relief in your life.  You don’t have to know HOW you are going to do it.  You don’t want to know really because a big shift usually happens organically and synchronisticly.  Claim what you want in your life and then listen for the next right step.  For me it was moving towards a healthier, longer life by going to see that specific doctor.  I kept listening along the way.  Do it and I will hold that energy with you!  You can post here what you want or simply leave a note saying you want to make a shift and I will hold space with you.  Once you know what you want…listen and take the first move.  The Creativity Tribe is playing Possibility Tribe!

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Deep Gratitude

I want to share my deepest gratitude for the incredible reception I got in sharing my diagnosis of uterine cancer earlier in the week.  I had a LoveStorm of support, encouragement, and prayers expressed here on the website and through my personal Facebook Page.  I had more visitors in one day than I often have in a good week.  So much love!  I can still feel a circle of care gathering up around me.  I want to assure each of you that although I have a diagnosis, I am feeling strong, have no out of the ordinary discomfort and am just waiting for my surgery. I am adding in lots of self-care, and doing what I love in my personal life and business life.  Thank you again….from the bottom of my very grateful heart!

 Creatively yours,

Rachel Payne Life Coach

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Boldly Saying the “C” Word

inwardOver thirty years ago when my maternal grandmother was diagnosed with breast cancer, she talked about it in a whispered code.  I remember saying the full word in front of her one day in the kitchen while we were making lunch together. She gently redirecting my speech by simply telling me she did not like the “C” word.  I respected that it was difficult for her.  She had a strong personality that felt like it steered the direction of our family and to see something knock her off her feet for awhile meant it was a force to be reckoned with.  Her breast cancer didn’t keep her down, though, Mamaw outlived it by nearly two decades.

This summer, I found myself called to the bedside of my friend Patrice.  Patrice had boldly danced through life with cancer for twenty years.  Upon my return from the big road trip I took in April, I went to visit with her.  That began a streak of visits in which I did massage and energy work with her.  She would ask for me to help her with her legs and I found as much as she wanted me close by, I wished to be part of her last glorious days.  Her days were glorious, too.  She partied in the end more than any other person I had know who was on their way out of this life.  She held life by the tail and made sure it knew it was a tiger!

At the beginning of the summer, my cycle had become rather irregular.  I was returning from my trip when my period just lingered on.  I was consulting a naturopathic doctor and would see my gynecologist when I could get an appointment.   Each week I spent time during my meditation workshop exploring some of the issues that floated around what it meant to me be a woman. I looked at creativity, mothering, body issues, power imbalances, safety and vulnerability, objectification of the body, denial of the voice, freedom of movement, sexuality, abundance…..the whole nine yards! This summer has been packed full of personal growth.

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Those few days after Patrice passed were very uncomfortable.  I had to stay close to home and became weak with an iron deficiency.  Something had turned a flood gate on, and I knew I needed medical help quickly.  I spent a month with the doctor doing this test and that, looking into options that might help me fix what was causing the crazy, heavy, unending cycle.  Just when we thought we had a plan of action we could all agree on (my gynecologist, naturopath, and me) I got the result back from a test that showed cancerous cells in my uterus.  That was about two weeks ago.

The “C” word.

I spent several hours after the doctor’s call alone at home.  I was shaken for sure.  You hear that word and the mind goes straight to the worst.  But on the fringe of fear I heard good news too.

We caught it early…we think it is contained…. you probably won’t need treatment beyond a hysterectomy.

Gratitude! Somehow I couldn’t help but think Patrice made sure I was taken care of.

Lots of things go through your mind when they give you news like that.  I thought about all the people I personally knew who had created a life with or after the “C” word.  I thought about the strength they had shone, about the way they framed their experience and what they made it mean to them and others in their lives.  Then I made a decision that I would be brave in my vulnerability, I would feel my feelings as fully as I could, process any old wounds that needed attention, celebrate the blessings that come with the journey, and when I could, I would share my personal story so others could support me and so I could help other women understand the beauty, strength, and essence of being a woman. What if this could change my life and the lives of others who needed….who needed….I don’t know.  I just feel like there is a gift in there somewhere.

That last part means claiming the “C” word to a world wide audience.  It is a big decision because in some circles you just don’t talk about your lady parts (yep, there is another “C” word some will never say) but I am bringing that conversation to this circle.  I am going to foster an honest, spirited sharing that doesn’t throw a hand up to make sure no one hears.

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I HAVE CANCER.  Loud and clear.

It won’t define me, but it also isn’t going to be just a blip on the map of my life.  I believe that there is Something Greater working here and the same calling that sat me next to Patrice in her last days to share my gifts…the same calling that has had me build a global community for the last three years just wouldn’t want me to keep the gifts of this journey secret.  To fully share those gifts, I think I must surely have to share the force that ushered them in.

So around here, I am beefing up the self-care, the self-love, and introspection.  I am going to continue to make my way through this life with creativity leading the way (now more than ever actually).  I open my arms to your support, encouraging you not to hurt for me but instead to hold a space of exploration and curiosity about what in the world I am going to transform this unexpected experience into. Be grateful with me, keep me in your prayers if you do that, and in your heart if you will.  For this journey I am grateful.  For this community I am grateful.  With gratitude, I am….

 Creatively yours,

Rachel Payne Life Coach

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The Indulgent Life

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I have been indulging in life this year.  Not the kind of indulgence where you eat rich, spend lots, and party til the sun don’t shine.  The kind where you hold onto whatever comes your way and sap out every morsel of meaning and magic you can.

What I have held onto…

There was a birth in my circle of friends followed by lots of time with the baby, funny faces, kisses on the bottom of the feet, adventures in diaper changing, and those magical moment when you help the little one find his way to slumber land.

There have been illnesses:  calls in the middle of the night, quick trips to the hospital, surgeries and moments where we didn’t know if this loved one or that was moving closer to or further from death.

There have been second chances:  a heart made new, whispered I’m Sorry’s, choked up Thank You’s, hope for the rest of a new life given.

And there have been last chances:  families and friends drawing close to squeeze out every last bit of loveliness life has had to offer, pulling up memories of the great times, letting go of the worst, counting breaths and pills, holding a hand, stroking a furrowed brow, and in the end inviting the letting-go.

There have been celebrations….of the birth, the play, the renewal, the life well-lived.

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In each of these threads of existence, I have looked for the gift.  That is the lesson I chose to learn this year, taking GIFT on as my word for 2013.  It is easy to look for the gifts in the places where celebration is the norm, but when life gets difficult and emotions are tender, being grateful and turning your eyes towards the positive takes some dedication.

And yet, that is where I am.  It doesn’t come automatically though.  I am choosing to shift my perspective.  The more I do it, the easier it is for me to understand HOW I am doing it.  That HOW is what I want to share with you next week.  Until then, I invite you to look for the gifts the difficult might have to share with you.  You just might be surprised at how much of life has something valuable tucked inside it.

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Creativity Tribe Cats {Shatzie}

Some people have bats in their belfry. I have cats in my studio. They come with me to work everyday. It isn’t a far leap from the house to the studio.  I work out of a sunroom on one side of the house. The cats love the sun and being close to me.  If you spend much time on the Creativity Tribe Facebook page, you might have seen pictures of them there or followed the long line of nick names we have given to one of our new cats.

Well, I thought it was time to officially introduce the feline line of the tribe and share their stories with you. 

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First there was Shatzie. When my artist hubby, Eric, and I first moved into our 1949 Cape Cod style cottage, it was the HEAT of Summer in South Texas.  The a/c was broken, and even though we had most of our 21 windows open, there was little breeze to be found. We were inspecting the carpet in the sunroom when we heard a very insistent “MEOW! MEE-YOW!”  We peeked down the hall only to find a very pregnant cat sauntering towards us.

“Hello!” she said. “It is about time someone moved back in. I have been bored, hanging out with the birds in the backyard.  I am very pregnant, bytheway, and will require lots of attention now and even more when my 4 boys arrive.  (Her oldest, Domino, is seen in the first picture in this post sporting the cool specs. ) As long as you are willing to pitch in and treat us well, we will allow you to live here.”

And so, a long relationship between Shatzie (which means Sweetheart in German) and her four boys (none of which are any longer with us, except for Sam who visits every 4 months or so) began.  Shatzie is our cat, but also our best friend. Life without her would be….well, unthinkable.

 

I will be introducing the twins in the next post of this series. Hope you enjoy the furry ones; we certainly do!

 

The Transition

It’s coming quickly, the end of the year, and I keep surfing between thoughts of  this year and the next.  What did I accomplish?  What fell through the cracks?  What do I want the coming year to be like?  What do I want my focus to be?

I bring little routines and rituals into my days in an attempt to tack down time. It feels like it is moving so fast.  So much action is packed into the next couple of weeks for me.  My husband and I just made a whirlwind trip to his hometown for a funeral, quickly visited with family, and rushed back to work.  This weekend we will make the same trip to fit a holiday visit in with his family, then back for work.  There is the shopping for home and holidays, handmade gifts, parties with friends, and more family….all the while tending to the everyday business of life.  You know the drill, I bet this story could be yours.

The tacking down of time is a trick we humans use to give meaning to life.  When I write about Creativity Tribe, I often say one of my main intentions is to bring meaning and magic to our lives.  That could just sound like a lofty cliche, but for me it is so much more.  Bringing meaning to life allows me to give added value to my experiences.  Magic is my way of talking about my belief that much of life is created by our actions, thoughts, intentions, and imagination.  Both these ideas express that we are not just victims to a life that happens out of our control.  Even when something happens that is not our choice, like death, disease, a break up or the like, we have a choice about how it affects us, how deal with it, what it means to us, and how quickly we let go of it and move on. These two ideas work together to help us frame moments and movements in our lives.

Life itself is one continuous, every evolving experience.  We don’t get breaks.  We don’t get a vacation from it. It keeps coming at us, second by second.  As humans though, we attempt to stop the merry-go-round to stay with a particular event and sometimes even imagine some experiences follow us throughout our lifetimes.  Take for example how I changed my story to change my life, disconnecting from the belief that I would die at 45 as my mother and grandfather had.  That is a sticky event that was carried two generations after my grandfather died.  I gave that belief to myself, just as my mother gave it to herself.  I assigned that meaning to my life.  And when it no longer suited me, I chose to shift to a new belief.  Instead of feeling a overwhelming dread about life quickly moving me towards 45, I have feel joyous and relieved….magic!

As we transition from 2012 to 2013, I am tending to some of the tacks I put in place last year and readying the tacks I wish to use for the coming year.  More about that tomorrow!

 

 

 

Internet Made a Radio Star

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Okay, maybe star is taking it a bit far, but it certainly feels that way. What little girl doesn’t dream of being on the radio!? I know I did. I was a theatre geek from middle school all the way through college. While other kids were playing house, school, store or doctor, I was playing radio and tv.

We used to put on elaborate shows, my friends and I. You know they say a kid will turn anything into a gun (I have seen some pretty funny guns in my time…french fry gun, finger gun, manual can opener gun, cat gun…not nice), well, I could turn anything into a microphone!

Today is one of those dreams come true days. I have been invited to be a guest on the Lucid Waking radio show tonight. I have been thinking about it for days, between art shows and live workshops. Dreaming about what I want the experience to be about, what I want it to feel like. This last year has been so much about creating the life I want. I have spent a lot of time combing through my dreams, my desires and my passions. My imagination has been the place where I do that most, that and my journal.

When we can hold the picture in our minds of how we want something to be fleshed out, it seems that the Universe has an easier time giving it to us. So here I am, making yet another leap closer to the life in my dreams. It’s really pretty awesome.

I hope you will join me tonight. I am leaving a link with all the info below. I will be sharing about the Spirit of Giving and the word I chose to guide me in 2013. Come by and have a listen, call in and let’s chat. You are part of my dream. Help me flesh it out!

The show details (Wow, Shar stuck an extraordinaire in there! Well, now…)

Lucid Waking presents: Creative Consultant Extraordinaire, Rachél Payne and The Spirit of Giving.

8 p.m. EST, 7 pm CST, 5 pm PST

Hope to here from you the.

 


Busy Bee

Yep, I have been honey dippin’ again!  Here’s whatzzzzzz up….

Wednesday

  Sharing my art for the Holiday Extravaganza at the Calallen Baptist Church (5:30 pm – 7:30 pm)

Friday

StressLess Holiday Cheer Party kicks off (Get on the VIP list for the party by signing up here…it is free!)

Saturday

  4th Annual Yogart Festival at Youga Yoga on Padre Island… I will have my art booth set up, and my StressLess Holiday Intentional Candle Workshop is headlining the event from 6 pm – 7 pm.  Check the event for all the details.

Sunday

  I will be a guest on Lucid Waking with Rev Shar talking about Living from a Spirit of Giving.  To get the details follow Creativity Tribe on Facebook where I will make sure to update with show time and address.

My thoughts on bee-ing busy…

Being a busy bee can be exhausting or exhilarating.  I think it depends on whether or not you like the work you are doing.  Me? I am not just any busy bee, I am a happy little busy bee.

 

Before I close, I would like to invite you once more to the StressLess Holiday Cheer Party.  It is my gift to you.  The Creativity Tribe is not just a website, not just a job for me. It is labor of love.  And celebrating those who gather here is my delight!

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Stomping Grounds

Half of living a creative life is looking at the world through a great pair of glasses.

We all have our stomping grounds. Those places that are near and dear to our hearts, that we know like the back of our hand.  The Art Museum of South Texas is that for me.  I have worked there on and off for….gosh, a very long time.  I started there as a drama teacher and gradually developed as an artist enough to offer art classes as well.

Now days, I am their go-to girl when the regular art teacher for the kids program (who used to be a student of mine, can you believe it?!) has something come up.  I love keeping a foot in the door there.

Recently I spent the day there with my friend (and blogging buddy)  Rosemary.  Rosemary and I love to meet for lunch and as luck would have it, we had an extra bit of time to visit so we had a bite to eat, caught up, and admired the view.

These pictures were taken from the observation deck that looks out over Corpus Christi Bay.

It isn’t uncommon for dolphins to feed and play in the bay when the water is warm enough.  And although it is nearly winter here, the weather is still mild enough to wear shorts and sandals most any day.

See the dolphin to the right of the shrimp boat above?  Awesome, huh?

The picture below is taken from inside the museum’s art studio where I usually teach. It was taken in October during a class with a bunch of first graders.  The class came to a halt when the tanker passed by.  It was almost like a giant suddenly walked by the window.  I was happy to stop the class. The large studio window suddenly felt like animated abstract paintings.

The art museum itself is a master piece. Designed by two architects (Phillip Johnson in the 70’s and Legorreta and Legorreta ’06) decades apart. It is a feast for the eyes.  The slide show below is virtual tour presented as a proposal for the building addition. It is kind of fun to check out and includes some of the museum’s permanent collection.

I hope you enjoyed getting to see one of the places I pull inspiration from.  It is kind of a no brainer to share it….there is the art (many piece I feel like I have a decade’s old relationship with)….there is the building which was where I spent time as a kid and then got to see it’s progression during the expansion….the environment it is in (what a beautiful city)….and all the amazing memories!
Your turn….
Where are your creative stomping grounds?  Where do you find inspiration?

My Art was Destroyed

Have you ever done mixed media art?  It is my new passion, partly for the product it creates, but mostly for the process.  I love it because it mirrors life itself.  It is messy, textural, organic, and holds the potential for beauty to come out of destruction.

I have been working on a painting the last several days….and nights.  It has been in my mind for a month.   I am creating it for an art show.

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Is 2012 the End of Times? Doomsday? Armageddon? Well, if this is indeed “The End” my friend, K Space Contemporary has a “Final Countdown” for you! “The Apocalypse Show” is a huge group exhibition of artists from all across Texas and features their unique takes on the end of the world scenario. It’s also K Space’s 5th Anniversary this year so please come down, experience a fantastic show and help us party like it’s “1999″! If this is “The End of the World As We Know It”, you won’t want to miss possibly the last show ever!!! It’s going nuclear!

The Process

 I am taking the painting through some of the painting layers that I learned at Tracy Verdugo’s Paint Mojo Texas Retreat.  The process is complicated, and honestly, I am sure I have forgotten a few steps.  But I am pleased with the parts I have remembered.  I don’t want to make Tracy’s art. Instead, I want to explore my own themes, calling on some of what I learned from her.

One of the consistent themes in her process is to let the painting have its own life so that we never know when we will lose some little or big part of it that we have been in love with since it made its way onto the canvas.  That is the push and pull of the process for me.  I hate it because I sometimes am directed (by the process) to completely destroy parts of the image that I am totally digging.  But the part I LOVE about the process is that I only destroy out of a sense of trust in the process itself.

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And that, my friends, is what I cherish about life…about being a Creative.  That is at the heart of the work I am doing as a Life Coach.  Trusting that something beautiful can grow out of chaos, pain, destruction, and difficulty. 

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So, enough talk about the painting. Let’s see the progression.

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