Just over a year ago when I embarked on the journey of working for myself, I placed one thing at the top of my list of values….self-care. I wanted my serious business woman self to honor the hard, working dedicated but oh-so-human self. In the beginning, I worked that into my day like a teenager with a new driver’s license. I took my time getting up in the morning, lit candles as I was blogging, burned incense while painting, napped if I felt like it, created one-person retreats…..I lived up the self-care.
Then I got all filled up, and I began to push myself. The drive to reach for my dreams felt good. It was empowering. I have felt unstoppable. One dream after another fell into place. I got a contract to teach at the Creatives Celebrating Sisterhood Art Retreat, was one of Mixed Media May‘s featured artists, taught a drama camp and then an art camp, had my first e-course (Touch the Moon), my first one-woman art show, got my website up (created it myself….oh that was a feat!), began offering my Life Coaching services and was featured on a radio show. In between, there were a thousand little firsts, tiny parts of dreams clicking into place, big connections with individuals, and plenty of witnessing the ah-ha’s of the Creatives who find their way here.
Week before last, I felt like I was running for a marathon. I was stretching myself to the max to keep up with the energy my dreams were setting off. I LOVED IT! I got SO much accomplished.
Then, I crossed the line, finishing the busiest week of my year so far. I exhaled and all the wind in my sails went with it.
Now, I find myself craving the quiet. I see myself needing more me time, less work time, and the one who lobbied for self-care is poking her head out again to say, “Hey, remember what you promised?”
Yes, I do remember. Gratefully, I remember.
So as the year winds down, so will I. I make no apologies of it, need not sympathy for feeling disconnected from my drive to push forward. I know this is part of the creative process. This is a vital part of sustaining long term creativity, the part where we recognize our accomplishments, celebrate them, and rest.
How will I do it? Well, to start off, a corporate holiday party, of course. I am taking my employees (that would be me) out for a spa day to include a luxurious massage (which I traded for some art a couple of weeks back….score), all the chai I can handle, and adding naps to my very short to do list. I am also going to do an inventory of my accomplishments and put them up somewhere….maybe tack a gold star to them. Oh, and throughout the holidays, I am going to unabashedly brag about myself to anyone who will listen.
I am indulging in the splendor of my year.
And I have to admit that sharing this with you warms my heart so much. Last year at this time, I wanted what I have today so much. Some days I felt so incredibly stuck, not being able to see the other side of it. But I always trusted that something would come out of my dreaming.
I am full of gratitude (please don’t just pass by that word without feeling the beauty of it) for the community that joins me on this journey…..for the artists, the bloggers, poets, dancers, followers, leaders, likers, the dreamers, the hopers, wishers, wanters, and the quiet ones who secretly pop in when no one is looking….for all of you who help hold this dream up…..I am full of gratitude.
What do YOU celebrate this year? What would you brag about if someone would listen?….don’t leave me bragging alone. How would you celebrate if you were me? I would love to know what self-care and celebration look like for you. I can always use a new idea!
Today’s Indulgence….a MEDIA FAST. Yep, I am spending 12-21-12 by checking out of the internet, news, books, radio, tv, and phone and am checking in with myself, my friends and family, and my intuition. Wanna join me?